In my creative research, I find myself wedged in a space where gender matters tremendously and matters not very much at all. Gender, agreed to be a social construct, regularly flirts with sexuality. They can be distinct from one another, but are usually involved. Both are serious subjects of study consistently under scrutiny to understand what they really are; yet, they operate on fluid spectrums of ever-expanding lexicons and are celebrated for this inclusivity. Again, mattering to admit to not mattering at all. It is this very instability of their categories that produces such intrigue and pleasure for me as a maker. Driven by haptic obsession, it is through making that I try to understand them.